It can be stressful and blissful all at once. It can be ugly and beautiful at the same time. Sometimes some of the easiest decisions are made at some of the hardest points in your life. Sometimes something wonderfuly, unexpected happens and possibly resparks the hope you thought was long gone. Even if those wonderfuly, unexpected things are only moments in time, there is somethings strong and tangible that stays w/ you and helps you see things a little clearer.
No one really knows how to navigate life. I mean really,there's no one handbook or set of guidlines...there's thousands of them. There are so many different ways to live life apparently, it's gotten everyone SO dang confused. And then to mess up...oh heaven forbid you mess up your life! Really that fits into the category of "anything that isn't picture perfect"...right? Aren't we conditioned to see life as being a perfect sequence of events leading us to outstanding and unending happiness?? And then to miss that mark leaves us feeling like we've gone and messed it all up...even if that's not the case.
Obviously life isn't picture perfect! It's not all rainbows and butterflies and EVERYONE know it...that doesn' mean that we let ourselves off the hook when it's our own mistakes. But we should! Live and learn! Learn to forgive, to let go, to love, to pray, to ask for help, to be strong and independant, to expect nothing but be thankful for everything. Be thankful for those tangible moments that make you feel happy and thankful and hopeful...and then smile and breath and know that you WILL mess up again. But that's not the point, it's only a minor detail!